I WANT SURPRISES FOR MY BIRTHDAY!
Speech day kinda suck. It ended so much earlier than last year. Time flies.. It seems that it was just a few weeks ago when i was marching in and stood there for almost an hour or so just to wait for the v.i.p like what the juniors were doing.
And how on earth did i recieved a 100% attendance award from girls' brigade when i'm such a big time slacker? But i never regretted going cos i can see my friends! Looks like everyone is doing fine=) Other than that, I finally found someone who thinks the same way as i am when it comes to love and relationship! And that's sijia!! Aww.. Hi five for 5 times!
See, we seperate eye candies away from crush and love. We'll only express our interest to him if we were to like him romantically but will never do that for eye candies. Eye candies will always only be eye candies.
We think that it's alright to have a few times of casual dates to see if our date and us are really meant for one another before getting down to real business. And if you find that he's not the one after a few casual dates, move on. Also, sijia and i feel that it's perfectly okay to hold hands, hug and kiss when the feeling is right even though he's just a casual date. It's the moment that matters, isn't it? Yup, this is our perspective which all of our common friends don't agree to. However that's alright, lah. But sometimes i just wonder why follow the set of old and boring rules set by people in the past whereby a couple can't even hold hands unless they really really love each other. Yes i mean love, not like. Does the term really matters?
I don't know what gave me the courage and reason, but i just told a guy whom i used to have a huge crush on that i used to like him. I then asked him how he exactly felt like when he 1st heard that and he said that he's shock, excited, happy and other mixed feelings. And he was literally blushing and shy away. That was cute i thought. I won't be putting his name cos i don't know if that will bother him. Well, unless he tell me that's it's alright, i won't be disclosing his name. Maybe because i strongly believes that the world is ending soon in 2012 so i became more open to things? Yes! This must be the reason why.
You might be wondering why i didn't tell him at that point of time but dragged for years given my way of handling love matters right? Actually on the day which i decided to tell him how i felt for him, i had a chat with my then best-est friend and she told me that they actually started dating but things didn't go well in them. She told me the whole story and subconsciously, i started thinking if i should convince myself to stop liking him cos i don't agree to the way he treated my best-est friend then.
If i were to know that they were dating earlier, i wouldn't even want to think about it cos i don't find an attached guy attractive. Moreover, if he belongs to my friend. Alright, i'm saying this now because the whole thing took place a few years back and i don't not think that it even matter anymore so don't feel offended if you think that you're involved in this matter, especially my then best-est friend.
And of course, i managed to convince myself that. Imagine how horrible i'll feel if i'm still liking him but can't tell him? However i can't deny that i felt good when he told me that he might not consider dating her if i were to tell him that i like him 1st. I know that a lot of people now will think that the sentence before this doesn't sounds right but put yourself in my shoes- will you also feel the same way if your crush tells you the same thing? See, the only difference between you and me is that i felt alright and open to tell people the ugliest, but true little voices deep down our hearts. So losers, stop judging me regarding that cos it's the pot calling the kettle black.
Matthew!! I want this song you're hearing now on my blog to be at my birthday party kaes??
And how on earth did i recieved a 100% attendance award from girls' brigade when i'm such a big time slacker? But i never regretted going cos i can see my friends! Looks like everyone is doing fine=) Other than that, I finally found someone who thinks the same way as i am when it comes to love and relationship! And that's sijia!! Aww.. Hi five for 5 times!
See, we seperate eye candies away from crush and love. We'll only express our interest to him if we were to like him romantically but will never do that for eye candies. Eye candies will always only be eye candies.
We think that it's alright to have a few times of casual dates to see if our date and us are really meant for one another before getting down to real business. And if you find that he's not the one after a few casual dates, move on. Also, sijia and i feel that it's perfectly okay to hold hands, hug and kiss when the feeling is right even though he's just a casual date. It's the moment that matters, isn't it? Yup, this is our perspective which all of our common friends don't agree to. However that's alright, lah. But sometimes i just wonder why follow the set of old and boring rules set by people in the past whereby a couple can't even hold hands unless they really really love each other. Yes i mean love, not like. Does the term really matters?
I don't know what gave me the courage and reason, but i just told a guy whom i used to have a huge crush on that i used to like him. I then asked him how he exactly felt like when he 1st heard that and he said that he's shock, excited, happy and other mixed feelings. And he was literally blushing and shy away. That was cute i thought. I won't be putting his name cos i don't know if that will bother him. Well, unless he tell me that's it's alright, i won't be disclosing his name. Maybe because i strongly believes that the world is ending soon in 2012 so i became more open to things? Yes! This must be the reason why.
You might be wondering why i didn't tell him at that point of time but dragged for years given my way of handling love matters right? Actually on the day which i decided to tell him how i felt for him, i had a chat with my then best-est friend and she told me that they actually started dating but things didn't go well in them. She told me the whole story and subconsciously, i started thinking if i should convince myself to stop liking him cos i don't agree to the way he treated my best-est friend then.
If i were to know that they were dating earlier, i wouldn't even want to think about it cos i don't find an attached guy attractive. Moreover, if he belongs to my friend. Alright, i'm saying this now because the whole thing took place a few years back and i don't not think that it even matter anymore so don't feel offended if you think that you're involved in this matter, especially my then best-est friend.
And of course, i managed to convince myself that. Imagine how horrible i'll feel if i'm still liking him but can't tell him? However i can't deny that i felt good when he told me that he might not consider dating her if i were to tell him that i like him 1st. I know that a lot of people now will think that the sentence before this doesn't sounds right but put yourself in my shoes- will you also feel the same way if your crush tells you the same thing? See, the only difference between you and me is that i felt alright and open to tell people the ugliest, but true little voices deep down our hearts. So losers, stop judging me regarding that cos it's the pot calling the kettle black.
Matthew!! I want this song you're hearing now on my blog to be at my birthday party kaes??