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I miss my grandma. I seriously can't accept the fact that she's nt around with us anymore. I still remember that when i was small and still living in the bungalow, i used to wake up early in the morning and went to the nearest coffeeshop to buy breakfast home with her. As we were walkin, i held her hands tightly when we were walkin pass a big canal as i was afraid that i might fall into it. After goin back home, we would sit on the stairs and she fed me breakfast.

Mum said that when she was small, her grandma put her in guang ming shan and the ppl there brought her up. She oso used to sell vegetables and feed the tortoise there. Then, she was married to my grandpa. Decades ago, a man can hav more than 1 wife. So, the same situation happened our family. However, the second wife had passed away early so my grandma helped to bring up her children without a word of grudge or complain. She treated them equally just like her own children. Seriously, my grandma's such a kind soul. She knew some simple english words like fish, tortise, money, morning. And it was real cute when she speaks english. I think that she hav learnt it while she's sellin vegetables in guang ming shan when foreigners came to buy.

We used to joke with her bout findin her a new husband, since the previous one had passed away, and she would laughed heartily. We oso asked her if yiyang could marry a girl so that she would hav a granddaughter in law and she said that yiyang can marry but i can't. She knew that yiyang everytime loves to go to her girl friends' houses. She said that i am good in my studies so i must finish my studies before i can be married -.-

Dad said that when i was small, there were hardly any hair grown on my scalp. So, grandma took a huge amount of olive oil and smeared it all over my scalp. Thats why i hav so much hair now. I was thinkin that she must hav used the left over on my body, thats why i am so hairy now.

My grandma's funeral was a grand one. There were tons of flowers, blankets and flags sent by people. Out of 10, at least 9 of them were sent by my dad's friend. Lol. What a wide connection he has! The mobile toilet was quite classy lookin as the toliet bowl was a sittin type instead of squatin and there were 2 mirrors there. The flags and blankets were so many that they hav to put until the next block. I hav been enjoyin myself with the black melon seeds, roasted peanuts and dozens of packet drinks.

During those 5 days, i hav realised, noticed and learned alot of things. I hav realised that my that i hav alot more cousins. Add together hav about 30 cousins. Some nvr even see before. Lol! why they nvr organize a family gathering or wad? Unlike my mother's side, at least hav 2 to 3 family gatherings every year. I hav oso realised that my grandma's dialect is nt hokkien, but cantonese. Lol! For the past 14 yrs living on earth, i hav only realise it todae. I hav oso realise that my mother's friend name is Chen qing hua, but nt chen jing hua. -.- I hav noticed that one of my cousin is a tomboy. Her hair was dyed purple, gold and orange and her chest was . I hav noticed that all of my cousins were either handsome guys or pretty girls. Even those little kids. Wah.. Grandpa and grandma sure hav good genes, that was why all of us hav good appearances 0.0 I hav learned how to play blackjack, bridge and cheat fm my cousins.

Out of the 5 days funeral, there were 3 days when we spent our night prayin for my grandma. 2nd day, which was a monday, there were 3 monks came to chant. Followed by the 3rd day, there were another 3 priests. And the 4th day, which was the last, there were 6 ppl in white came to pray and chant. The "song" sounded sad. I think they purposely sang until so sad so that grandma would come back or whatever. Then, there were a group of about 50-60 gangsters came before of grandma's photo to sing their song and bowed 3 times to her. At that moment, it was so silent that u could hear a pin drop. Most of the them were teenagers and i hav spotted 1 whitleyan in that group. Lol! I was wonderin who invited them here. The 1st suspect came into my mind was dad and no more since 1 out of 4 of his friends all this kind of pattern.The 4th day ritual was quite late and becuz of that, police came.

Grandma was cremated yesterdae. Before that, there came a group of band and there were 2 loud speakers installed. They were havin a "live concert" for my grandma. Dad had oso stepped forward and sang a song for her. He was cryin as he sang. There were oso 2 big head dolls dancin in front of her. When ppl were liftin her coffin, a group of gangsters came again. But it was nt as much as the day before. That was nt shockin enough. The most shockin plus coincidence is the gangsters were fm whitley. We walked fm my house all the way to the comfort taxi company's buildin then we took private bus in to guang ming shan. As we were walkin, they were shoutin dunno wad but fm a little bit of wad they said, its somethin auspicious. At that moment when i saw my grandma being pushed in for cremation, my tears were runnin down like runnin tap water. Very very sad.

Lol! At least some gangsters pop out in the middle of nowhere and attend my grandma's funeral although they hav nvr see her in their life. Unlike my friends whom hav saw her before, dun wan to come cos its the lunar 7th month. Miss my computer so much. Nvr use for the pass few days cos ppl said that she will feel terrible if we were usin pc or watchin tv as there were no such thing in heaven. Supposingly, we cannot use watch tv and all those crap for 100 days, but still watched at the end of the day.

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...