xiaohui

Oh my god! how can this ever happen to me again?!? I hate it!!! I really dunno wad should i do now... I hav a bad impression about love now. All thanks to my 1st love. I told myself i will never ever fall in love again, as i am scared, really very very scared. I realised that i was too naive at that time, thinkin love was everything but now love to me, its a horror, a nitemare, a load of craps... He keeps askin me why can't i accept him and i am wordless and he keeps thinkin tat the problem lies wif him and he keeps blamin himself for not being too good for me now although i told him tat this is not the case. Actualli he is a good guy, a very good 1. But i... I hav a transparent barrier in front of me now. Unless i break it(impossible), if nt i can't bring myself to start another new new love relationship.